Monday, June 24, 2013

Joy comes in the morning?

Pain greeted me, "Good evening".

Attacked on every side.
The emotional turmoil is so much to take.
Wanting peace to reside,
but the unstable nature is causing my heart to break.

What to do? Who to turn to?
I asked for this empathic nature.
I had no idea that it could be so cruel.

I cry unto God, not a face full of tears,
just prayerful words asking to be restored,
empowered, and meaning for the rest of my years.

His silence is deadly. Yet, the worlds comments overwhelm.
Their judgements plague me... and my mind...
Reminds me of how I fail.

Failed in my dreams.
Failed in my faith.
Failed in my family.
Failed in my love.
Oh from the reminders of my mind, there is no escape!

Yet, here I am. I still remain to be.
Filled with hope. Hope for what?

Hope to accomplish my dreams.

Beaten and battered, shaken and torn.
Self-esteem crushed. Spirit nearly gone.
I know it's only by Gods grace that I'm able to move on.

Move on to what?  And then, become who?
I've been attacked on every side for so long,
I don't know what to look forward to.

Well, it says joy comes in the morning.


Please don't be in vain

Following my nature lead me away from you.
Yet, denying all that I desire, draws me closer too.
When ignoring my feelings and logic, my spirit grew.
Now, here I am...
That Jeremiah 29:11 is true.


Friday, June 21, 2013

There's a Thin Line.

Passion unbridled, truth foreknew and ignored
Pain ensued, attitudes change, uncomfortable work environment explored.
The soul jeopardized, because of neglecting the Lord.
Know the way, but strayed from the path, all due to the attempt to score.
Temptation manifested.
Pleasure digested.
Then, only to return for more.

Forgive me, Lord.

No fingers to point, no one to blame.
Simply my indulgence, the cause of my pain.
As it is written in James,
"..each person is tempted when he is drawn away
and enticed by his own evil desires".
The adversary giggles from his planted seed of death
then elevates the fires. Death, his ultimate move.
James concludes,
"Then after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin,
and when sin is fully grown, it gives birth to death".
I pray, dear Lord, that its not too late, and I still have some life left.

Oh Lord, I repent.

I see now diligence is needed.
Matter of fact, I was forewarned.
1 Peter 5 verse 8,
"Be serious! Be alert! Your adversary the devil is prowling
around like a roaring lion, looking for anyone he can devour".
I am to stand on guard... day by day, minute by minute, and hour by hour.
How do I stand? Even for this, the Lord has a plan.
Ephesians 6:11-13,
"Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.
For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers,
against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
Wherefore take unto you the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day,
and having done all, to stand."
I know the verses, but now it's time to implement.
But before I take another step forward...

Dear God, forgive me for my sins. In Jesus Christ' name, Lord, I repent.